baby boys a'comin

Its weird.

I feel like I have been preparing to be a mom my entire life. Before I was even married I thought about and dreamed about being a mom. The fact that I only wanted to be a mom was the reason I chose my major, which is family studies. 

I have read about what a good mom does. I have looked at the wonderful examples of mothers that are around me. I have said endless prayers for help to be a good mom when our little guy comes.

But the closer I get to him getting here the more unprepared I feel.

I have his bedroom to get ready.

We have things we need to buy.

I want to clean our house because I don't want our little guy coming into a home that looks like a war zone. 

I started making a star wars quilt for him that I need to finish.

I want more time to work and save up money for him.

So many things....

But here we are. 

4 weeks away from my due date.

And none of it is done.

I feel like I should be freaking out.

And I am.

But mostly...

 I'm excited. 

So so so so excited.

I can't wait to see my little boy.

This little guy that I have come to know over the past 8 months.

I can't wait to feel his soft baby skin and smell his sweet baby smell.

I can't wait to hold him and snuggle with him.

I can't wait to see his dad be a dad.

I can't wait to take care of his every need.

So maybe my house won't be the cleanest and maybe he will have an unfinished star wars quilt. 

oh well.

I'm gonna be a mama in 28 days.